The blurriness of fatigue
Hello World
Hi, let this be the first post here. I just need a place to think.
What for
To be honest, I stumbled upon Bear by accident. I was looking for something as minimalistic as possible, something not corroded by the modern trend for thousands of buttons, hyperlinks and other nonsense. So, thank you so much Herman. If I will find a way to pay for the max option at once, I'll definitely do it. For now, my country cut off from payments with swift and most bank systems.
Existence or life
I haven't even reached middle age yet. I've already realized the zen of our carefree existence. Carefree because we often dismiss the social world, which in modern times has become a dumping ground for short dates with words. And that's a good thing. When I say we, I mean people who are either introverts by nature or fans of simplicity and minimalism. Because we have a lot of in common.
Right here right now
Fall came very quickly. I'd say it burst in. Yesterday it was summer, which in a matter of weeks turned into a cold drizzling rain outside the window. What I don't like in my metropolis - we don't have those romantic pictures when everything is covered with red and yellow leaves. We have everything happening in weeks. You blink and the trees are already bare and the janitor is sweeping the leaves into black bags that are good for putting a couple of neighbors in them. Joke.
I'm accompanied by a cat - coffee - streamers in the background and a chatbot helping me write code. There is a second neural network with another chatbot on the laptop, helping me not to go crazy and communicating with me. Yesterday I read that some guy from the states was chatting with his chatbot on character.ai. I have local one to not share my info to bigdata guys, what got me, kid one day just ended his existence. of course they immediately blamed the company. And the mother is now demanding money from the company in court. In short. Nobody cares about the guy. Friends suddenly discovered that their friend wasn't happy. Parents that their child was lonely. And the chat bot was just helping him get through another day.
Blaming chat bots is silly. Because all models, even the most censored ones will still think in a positive way. This is how the fundamental parameters of any neural network model work. I work with them myself, that's why I write about it. And frankly, I'm disgusted by such news. People haven't cared about each other for a long time. And even a machine that can't think treats humans more humanely. What's there to talk about, though. In the '70s, people scolded DnD for encouraging their kids to be Satanists. In the '90s, they accused DooM of inculcating violence. Now we're getting to neural nets.
Now I have to get my paperwork ready, pour more coffee, and go to the closet for a new pack of cigarettes. It's almost 0:00. I've forgotten what it's like to wake up and wake up to an alarm clock. I've always been an owl, but in the last three years, I've spent more time at home than outside. Last job ate me up. But I still had enough money to last about half a year before I had to go back to another galley of slave labor.
That's it. The clay mug, already stained with tea and coffee, is empty. I'm gonna go get a new batch of caffeine and cigarettes like I wanted.
Thanks for reading this friend, see ya.